Wednesday, November 19, 2008

is it so hard to love myself again?
being engulfed in the ambitions of what you can and may be
constantly searching for a better opportunity
worrying day and night
sleepless and wide awake
perspiring everytime i toss and turn

there has got to be more to life than wanting a better 9 to 5
will everything become mundane after a year?

my perception is wrong
my attitude is wrong
life must come first
then work

but what is life? is it a relationship? a hobby?
im tired of staying awake afraid to sleep

i need to work on life. ideas anyone?

Monday, August 04, 2008

Days in the Diocese Commissioning Mass, Telstra Dome

It was a joyous scene all over Melbourne. I headed down to the city by train. Pilgrims from all over the world were in the same train singing their praises at the top of their voices. Cheering and challenging other coutries pilgrims. This reminded me of the world scout jamboree I attended in Thailand 6 years ago combined with the patriotism from the commonwealth games. People from all over the world united for a cause. A common interest, a common goal, to worship God.

For the whole weekend the pilgrims were just walking around the city with their flag held high, strumming their guitars, singing and just having fun. It kind of gave Melbourne a jolt of fun at that time.



Freezing cold outside the Telstra Dome



Pilgrims from East Timor


Pilgrims all over the world marching towards the Telstra dome waving their flags proudly while singing praises.



And the french..


More french


St Anthony's participants





All the holy people.


Two isles full of priest from all over the world!


Yes yes..we had to seek down the malaysian flag to take a picture. Some of them were from KL and some of them were from JB

View of the crowd

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Rest in peace grandmum

its good to see that you are in a better place now.
somewhere you dont have to suffer anymore.
to finally lay your head to rest.
we will never forget you.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

thank god.

Luke 6:29

And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloak forbid not to take thy coat also

Monday, April 28, 2008

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Sunday, April 20, 2008

101st

As I walked the streets of Burke, the chilling breeze blowing through my thin clothing. Heavy hearted, soul unrested, agitated.

I see souls from all walks of life walking hastily to a purpose. As they walk pass me, I turn to the side to catch a glimpse of their determine eyes. I pondered what was going through their minds with such focus.

I see happy faces, people who laugh at almost everything, who are so carefree. With a group of friends they are comfortable with, sharing whatever comes to mind and speaking it freely.

I see couples holding hands, hugging each other tightly bracing through the breeze. My hands found itself deeper in the pocket.

I then see people who arent so different from me, walking alone. Most of them walking and staring at the floor as they drag themself somewhere.

I then ponder, what would people perceive me as I pass by them.

"I give you a new commandment: love one another, as i have loved you"

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Mount Dandy


View from the peak


An idiot who used a smaller spare tyre and drove up the mountain.






Pooven after 500 steps up



Sue made it after 1000 steps


This is the best pic of all, no dog and cat mating?

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008

Autumn's need

As the season changes through a gradual transition,
As the colors fade and dull,
Where leaves shed, barks chip and fall,
Branches left bare amongst the wind.

Its time for a change, a subtle timid retractment from the environment,
To hide from the harshest of the world has to offer,
Snuggled tight in shelter awaiting for its moment,
Humbled with its hidden potential,
To spring back to its first bloom.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Its been a while since I have posted anything. I have been through one of my many lows in my life. Faced with decision I never thought would occur so soon.

I guess this should be a big thank you to those who were there for me. Those who dragged me off the floor, carried me up and put me back on my 2 limbs. Those who slapped me silly, lifted my chin up and opened my eyes. Those who spoke sense into me. Those who showed me kindness, those who showed me that there is so much the world has to offer.

Celine- Thanks for talking sense into, putting some perspective into my life, allowing me to take a step back from all the hell that broke loose to realised what is going on and to re-evaluate on what life has to offer.

Jc- Thanks for walking me through every step of the way.

Sern Liang - Thanks for being online as the person I can talk to and share whenever whatever.

Sue- Thanks for the radiating enthusiam since you were here.

Vonne and ryn - Thanks for being there like how a family would.

Jaclyn - Thanks for being my comrade.

Ashwin - Thanks for being my wingman in the office.

And to all of you who I havent mentioned who shed some light and guidance.


k'ebww, ud tiy 'ew ew'subf rgus, giow tiy 'ew g'oot 'bs qwkk. u qukk vw tiye deuwbd aiib. cwet aiib

Sunday, February 24, 2008

you set me free.
you showed me the world
you showed me what i could have

Monday, January 28, 2008

cogitating

I wish I was an infant.
As I gazed at this little girl sitting diagonally across me, she smiled back at me.
Being torn inside out, I envy such pure minds without worries, clueless of what the world holds for her.
She smiled with confidence and then looked away towards the window of the train.
Shes yet to learn the decisions that will engulf her.
The crossings which lay ahead, absolutely clueless.. Que Sera Sera.

I wish I could be like her, carefree and taking everything at face value.
She looks at me again and smiles.
How did I turn into such mess.
Why cant we maintain our purity?
Why cant we feel loved the same way she is.
No wonder they say children are gifts from God.
Such untainted and trusting, allowing anyone to love them as long as they share their thoughts of the world to them.
As I leave this train and this little girl, I feel slightly better.
I learnt from her that with the thought of being loved by someone, I can seek comfort...
All I have to do is to try and love again without being judgemental.
But it all comes down to whom I can trust..
Que Sera Sera